5/6/09 - Thinking about my angel

I'm having a REALLY tough time right now. So much is happening. Mother's Day is looming and this is the Mother's Day that I should have just about been a mom. This was my time. And then poof. Gone. Nothing. I take my last birth control pill on Mother's Day. Oh, the irony. My emotions are at all time high and I feel very alone with what I'm going through; few understand what I'm about to embark on. And then there is my EDD coming up. The most painful thing ever is to think of my baby that I'll never get to hold.