3/1/09 - Infertility Ramble

I'm having a REALLY hard time recently. I've been reading my old due date board - looking at their belly shots and discussions on their future plans, and then even looked at diaper bags online. Bad move, dummy.

I just want to sit and cry. I should be 25 - 26 weeks pregnant, but instead I'm 180 degrees the other direction and can't even TTC.

Then the weight thing is killing me. The scale won't budge, and I'm sure it has to be my thyroid because my calories in vs. calories out just doesn't justify the lack of loss.

TOM is due, and that's probably why I'm so sad, but I feel so freaking left out of the mommy madness. When is it MY turn? I feel so haunted, tortured and barren.